Two years ago this day I came to know about the existence of the little one. It was not a fairy tale moment, rather, due to some recent hiccups I didn't know how to react to the situation.
I had my life timeline planned out from before. I would start my family five years after my marriage. By then I would finish my Masters, so that I could give up my full time job and start teaching part time at a University and have more time to spare for the offspring. Also by this time I would have completed acquiring a nest for the little one.
In 2011, when my friends/ colleagues were going for Hajj I asked them to pray for me, as I wanted to extend my family. Things now surprises me, how one thing led to another, and how it ultimately led to the life changing event.
Anyhow time has passed, and the pieces in the puzzle didn't quite fit in. There are so many things in life I am left unsure about, but one thing I can assure in a heartbeat is: being a mother is the best thing that ever happened to me. I feel content and blessed to have the little one. I was once asked if I felt him to be burden, I want to assert that ....if anything, my little one is a blessing. He is a constant reminder that despite all odds, how my Creator listened and responded to my wanting. He is the reason that I have faith in the Almighty's decision, and am calm in this moments of despair. I know what is happening is for the best, as always, and all I have to do is be patient and righteous.
~ and know that whatever has befallen you could never have missed you, and that which missed you could never have befallen you ~
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